New Year's Day---I started dating Teddy on New Year's eve 1982, the clarity of that night still can be remembered vividly in my mind, I see each step, each movement, each facial expression as I was swept off my feet by him...in this life, I've never met anyone like him...New Year's held so many fond remembrances to us...our first year together, U2 had a song "New Year's Day", of course that became our song...and each New Year's eve to come, we'd talk about how we somehow fell deeply in love on that night...back then, it was "new hope"...through tough times to come, it became "new starts", somehow love would pull us through and together...maybe that's why what we have is special? Something always kept us together...I look back and remember people telling me that oftentimes a marriage struggles when a child is lost...well we've discovered everyone struggles with us....Adam's death had so many reeling in this painful aftermath...God Bless those who cannot see what we are---what we faced---and continue to....for if not for each other, I think our current lives now would deteriorate completely...we acknowledge that...we are only as strong as the other is...because it takes the two of us to hold each other up and prevent the son we have...from falling...today's a day that many wish for change...to lose weight, stop smoking, give up the booze...us? We have no New Year's goal, ours would simply be to be able to continue to look into mirrors and see the reflection we put force...and continue to be satisfied with the reflection we see---not physically...but looking far deeper into the souls of ourselves, hoping that to God's eyes...we've done enough...