Life seems to spin on unendingly even though we sit and wish it would stop abit...

...when i die...will i be remembered????....and if i am....how will i be remembered....
.....sort of makes you wonder...or strive to live a life being remembered for, yesterday passed us by and here we three remain standing, like tall sunflowers....swaying in the wind, toppled now and then by a tumultuous wind yet not brought down fully to the ground...somehow, somewhere...someone gave us strength...
I recognize the gifts that others gave to us...their strength...their love...
my own gift, the gift I was informed of many months ago when I scoffed at the mere idea that I was somehow "given a gift"....but two years passing me by has opened my eyes further as well as my heart...as I walk in the beauty of God's surroundings... knowing fully that each one of us---through the roughest of times is allotted that gift, the gift of recognizing true pain and knowing true empathy...I thought I knew it...but I was wrong, as many attempts to "help" or "support" there was no truer knowledge of infinite turmoil that what we as a family endured...but God Graced us with support...no matter what life throws at us...or at others, we will somehow be able to empathize and support...

‎"Sometimes it is better to be kind than to be right...we do not need an intelligent mind that speaks....but a patient heart that listens....♥"

....Ted said it best the other day...each day that passes us is just one more day of missing our son....our pain never goes away, nor does the longing we have...the wishfulness of seeing him once more....we dread becoming old...and all the years ahead of us, as we are forced to live without him.....