Carefully. Surround yourself. With people who only lift you higher...❤️

Teddy. I love you...

With you I am the best "me" possible. With you things make sense.  Life hasn't been easy. But you and your positive attitude make me see things in a different light. I love most how easily I can talk to you.  Never lost for words.  My favorite thing about  "us" is how we remember.  Each of us bringing up happy moments that may have been told long ago. Yet we will both smile and those memories become vivid.  I love you. Much more than I could ever say in words. My heart is full.  You are everything I ever prayed for in a man. My love. My best friend. My companion in life. You are the greatest. Kindest. Most loving man I ever met. And I realize every day how blessed I am ❤️

....what I have learned.....

What Adam's death taught me...that anything in life can change in an instant...or can be swept away in an eyes blink. That you can never do enough to help someone or show love sufficiently. So we need to love as much as we can...just in case. That not everyone will be there for you as you'd presume. But there will be other people who'll  walk into your life with drive. And purpose...who'll lead you in ways you'd never imagine. That keeping your heart open is probably the most important thing you'll ever do in an unimaginable time. And if you allow it...God will send you signs. I've learned to forgive. Even if the apology was never made. Silently forgiving someone who hurt you allows yourself to heal.  Letting go.  Just letting the weight of anxiety lift away. Realizing that I've gone through the worst.   And I'm still here. Why cast more upon myself. I've learned strength. That it comes in many forms. I've learned bravery. Sometimes the bravest people are those who fight quiet battles each day without anyone else knowing. Facing fears. Sometime you have to look fear right in the face and say I'm stronger than you!  I've learned self pride.  I don't need anyone to understand my journey. I know the ride I've been faced to endure. Other people's opinions really matter very little. I've learned that being kind is a priceless gift. And that it feels really good to continue in kindness. That helping others in itself helps me. By helping others we create unbelievable friendships.  I've learned that little things are monumental. That there are times when no words are sufficient but that hugs always are. I've discovered that Silence is a good thing.  And alone time is also underrated. I've learned so much. I know some people carry their burdens in a way that others see it as soon as they're approached. I've learned to carry gratitude and thankfulness no matter where I go. And keep a positive attitude and smile for others. Because there are others who endured hard times too.  I'm pretty sure God's Grace helps me each day. Thankful
That people find warmth around me.  And that Adam's love envelopes me each day.