Adam...

No one could ever come close to understanding the depths of our sorrow...sadly---the only ones who truly "know" are those who unfortunately have endured the sames pains of tragedy...unimaginily....I miss you even more....always and forever you live within my heart and soul....Adam, the reason I am able to continue is because I still feel you pushing me...ahead....

"True understanding of loss can only come from a heart that has suffered the same"...I found this in a card a stranger who lost a son had sent me two years ago---I put on a good face...to hid away the pain most of the time...I am broken---and each day I feel my own weaknesses and hurt...I cling to things that provide me with some Peacefulness...although it's momentary...as I close my eyes and say "the Lord is close to the broken hearted, He rescues those who are lost of Spirit..."...wishful that the darkness looming on Jordan will somehow lift and that our little family can find a new form of strength and happiness....